She took him faster than you can say sabotage.

Tonight is one of those thinking nights. One of those question-everything-I'm-doing nights. They suck.
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People that say things, but can't back them up with actions really bum me out.
But then again, people that do the right actions, but say all the wrong things, they make me sad sometimes too.
I dunno. I think I'm just overreacting. This is what I want, in a way. I'm fine with it. I'm just thinking too much. That's what sitting at home does to me. It's all I need right now, and it's all I want.
I feel like I have to keep telling myself that. However, I used to believe it a lot easier. Now, I'm not sure.
UGH. Next week is going to SUCK. :( It's really gonna screw with my head. :/ But, maybe it's gonna help. That's possible too. Maybe it's going to make things better, and maybe get some damn closure. Maybe it'll make everything okay. But I doubt it.

"Surrounded by every lie that won't come true
Now you wanna take the time, well why would you?
Think you're gonna make it right, but how could you?
So I can't stay, surrounded by every lie.

You might as well just stop cryin'
It doesn't mean much to me anymore
A little too late to start tryin'
I'm takin' this love off of life support
Now I can't stay."

"Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow"

"I'm done trusting you, it's ended
Even after I catch you red handed
You could've been my only one
But now your chance is gone

You should've, when you could've
You're gonna miss my love"


Anyway.
I'm totally overreacting. I know what's up... I just get too caught up sometimes.

Okay, enough on those topics. They suck. :P

I've been making everything about him lately, I need to cut that out! :P Boys... Pff, what are ya gonna do with 'em? :P

Soooo, I miss my friendssss. It's been soooo long since we've ALL hung out! :(

Me and Dani have been good lately. That makes me happy. :)

I've talked to Andrew twice in the past week, so that's good too. :)
I wore his shirt and necklace today, and the kiddos I watched asked me about him. It was cute. :)

Yanno, I've been missin' Iowa lately. I wanna go. I haven't been in over a year! :o
Crazyyy.

Ugh. I've been stressing about college a lot lately. :/ I was thinking SEMO, but now I dunno. I wanna be with my friends, but maybe there's a better college I should go to. Plus, I kind of had an alterior motive to going there, that I'm thinking is a really bad idea now. I don't think it's a good idea to go there anymore.

Hm, I think it's sleep time. I get to sleep in the next TWO days... I'm excited. :) Tomorrow's gonna be a little lonely, but the next day won't be. :) I get to spend it with all of my favorite people. :)

Well, peace. :)