Ugh. :/

You're starting to piss me off. I'm getting real tired of your shit. I shouldn't have talked to you today. Actually, I told myself YESTERDAY that when you came back to me, because I knew it was going to happen sometime soon, that I was NOT going to give you what you wanted. And, of course, when you texted me today, I was right there for you. I'm just about done. I would be completely done if I didn't miss you so damn much. But I'm not going to lie. I do miss you. A whole hell of a lot. And I would love to be with you right now, like it was before. But I doubt it's going to be like before. Or at least, it wasn't the last time we hung out. You were just using me. I knew that, in the back of my head. But I didn't want to believe it. I wanted to believe that it'd be like it was before again. So, I did. But it wasn't. I was just so happy because it had been so long.
I feel kind of hypocritical, because I know I kind of did this to you before. When I'd always go back and forth between you two. But, it's not like I just acted like you didn't exist when I was with him. We were still friends. But when you're with someone else, I don't even matter to you until they're done with you.
I'm not going to give you what you want so easily this time, and we'll see how that goes.